My Shittiest Blog Post Yet

In the 5 or so months I’ve been writing this blog in earnest, I’ve churned out some pretty shitty stuff.  My first posts were definitely the worst—long, meandering, pointless or multi-pointed.  There’s this one called “Advanced Fonzametrics”—so bad.  I tried to cram 20 years of life-lessons into one 2K+ word post.  There have also been some not-so-long-ago posts that seem to equally stink.  I think my mom was the only person who read yesterday’s post.

I was pondering my ineptitude while reading the blogs of the luminaries in my chosen genre (personal development, I guess) last night.  Many of their posts felt like they were going through the motions.  I could see the author staring blankly at his or her computer, thinking, “What the hell am I going to write today?  I guess I’ll write about that thing my kid does.”  It got me thinking that there might not be such a wide gulf between those who are making it and those who are struggling to do so.

It’s tough for those of us who haven’t gotten into a positive feedback loop to believe that what we’re doing is worthwhile.  No one is asking us to do what we’re doing.  We put ourselves out there—whether we’re writers, painters, singers, entrepreneurs, activists, whatever—unsure if anyone beyond our family and friends gives a shit (and we suspect we might soon exhaust their enthusiasm).

We wonder how we can be more like “successful” people.  How do we crack the code?

Sometimes there is a code.  There is such a thing as skill.  For example, I’ve written posts that resonate with readers more than others; I can try to figure out what qualities people respond to and imbue future writing with similar attributes.  But I would never learn these things if I hadn’t put out some pretty crappy stuff first.  In other words, the “code” might just be a willingness to put ourselves out into the world consistently.

It makes me think of Adam Sandler.  There were a few years when you couldn’t take a piss without seeing his movies.  Yet I never thought he was very funny.  Happy Gilmore, The Waterboy, Little Nicky—Sandler was an inanity machine.  But the guy put himself out there.  He wasn’t deterred by my criticism.  If I didn’t like his movies, I didn’t have to watch them.

So in the spirit of Adam Sandler, I’m going to keep writing shitty blog-posts. I might even make a shitty video or two.  I’m going to promote myself in ways that might be disproportionate to my talents.

It’s not my intention to churn out shitty writing or related media products.  I have no desire to waste my time or yours.  I want inner peace to flow from my words to your heart.  Seriously.  But in the process, I might miss the mark.  My apologies in advance.  I  genuinely appreciate your support and hope you enjoy what I write.

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2 thoughts on “My Shittiest Blog Post Yet”

  1. It’s interesting what you’re describing. I tried starting a company (the website is still up–www.klera.org). After several months of working nights on it, I released the product and…..few actually cared.
    I was reading this book called the Dip. It is full of pictures and stupid figures that made me dismiss it as another example of popular business trash. Yet some of the things he said in there really resonated with me.
    The whole point of success is artificial scarcity. This is created by a long period of time where you continue along without any rewards or encouragement. During this period, most people give up. The problem is that there are other times when you aren’t getting feedback because it is a bad idea.
    The trick, he argues, is to be able to distinguish projects/goals that will eventually result in feedback and aren’t right now because of the dip vs. those that are not resulting in feedback and require too many resources/too much effort to accomplish.

  2. Thanks for the comment Ron.
    It’s a fine line between determination and delusion. In other words, am I determined to overcome obstacles to bring my project/goal into being? Or am I deluded in thinking that these obstacles are not portends, feedback that I should stop at once?
    These are really essential questions. Extending beyond projects/goals, we can ask ourselves, am I living for myself? Do I have the “locus of control” in my life? Or is my life shaped by reactions of others?
    The way I see it now–and I think the necessary mindset to have when creating anything (not sure if it’s deluded or not)–is that I am creating something I have to give. I have no choice. It’s my reality. My job, in relation to others, is to create agreement. The positive feedback loop is sealed when receiver (you) agrees with deliverer (me) about the value of what is offered.
    Same thing applies to a product. You must create agreement with the customer that what you’re selling is valuable.
    I think there’s room for malleability in this theory. Feedback (positive or negative) can help refine our realities. If no one is buying what we’re selling–whether it’s writing, a product or even ourselves as friends or lovers–it might be occasion to evaluate if what we’re delivering is truly in line with what we set out to create. Sometimes we need to hunker down and stay true, other times exert flexibility.
    But what do I know?

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